dreams

i have been having the weirdest dreams. i don't remember all of them completely... just a few vivid pieces that stick out in my brain. moments. here they are. freud loves me.

last night i had driven a long distance to go see a boy. like, hours. we meet at his friend's house because she is having a party. this girl, though... i'm guessing she likes the boy i am meeting... and so we can't really talk in front of her. so we chill and have a good time at the party. but there was this one point where the girl left the room and we were leaned up against the wall and he and i were arguing about kissing each other. i just remember his hands. they were stubby and fat. horrible finger nails... like i don't even wanna talk about them. anyways, at this point i felt bad because i know he wanted to kiss me but i didn't want to kiss him. he was really short too. so i decided to kiss him just to get it over with (since i drove all this way for the boy and all) and plus, once we kissed and there was no spark, it would be closure.
but man... i went in to kiss him and he playfully pulled away and fought with me for a few seconds before our lips hit each other... i don't remember the kiss... i just remember pulling away and being dizzy from it. it was that good of a kiss. i was pissed.
then all i remember is the party now having all of these people that i knew there.

so that was last night.

the night before that it was even weirder.

i was in at an event... similar to a high school graduation... but i was an alumni. i wasn't more than a few years older than most of the students attending the event. i was wearing a long skirt and shoes that hurt my feet. i just remember being in a parking lot area like the bus lot at QO with this boy. he was wearing a white collared shirt and a dark gray and green tie. we were having a flirty conversation about something... i was talking about how i was older than he was... i was chewing on some really powerful dentine-ice kinda gum. like, i had just put two pieces in my mouth. my whole mouth was having that cool tingly feeling. before i knew it he leaned in to kiss me and i this gum was totally in the way. he stole some of it. my god that was a good kiss. minty and intense. then all of a sudden i ask the question "do you have a girl friend?" and he goes... "well... kinda." and proceeds to describe some popular, pretty bitch that he really doesn't like.
suddenly we are in a book store... puts me in mind of the Book Exchange in CP. he's working there and we are touching and kissing in between the book shelves all naughty-like when no one can see us. then his girl friend comes in. she's got beautiful brown hair and is wearing a maroon dress... looks like the one i wore to homecoming senior year. anywho i try to play it casual and pretend i don't know the guy. they are talking and i go up to the counter to pretend to ask him about a book. he's all nervous and tries to blow me off. i tell him that he is a horrible employee and walk out.

craziness. i can totally see how different parts of my life and my thoughts are present in these little scenarios. take that as you will, people... don't hate. ::innocent grin::

i'm going to use these in some short stories i think. i'll let you know with update versions as soon as i write them.