rock, starz.

i dunno how, but i let it out. not all of it... and not as well as i know i can in the privacy of my own car and shower... but i let it out.

jason and i played for over 4 hours last night.

i think it's just that understanding... that connection between the two of us and what he want to do with this musical magic that makes me so comfortable with him. i know for a fact that i couldn't do what i did with anyone else there, because while joe was outside with us, and even while dan was merely on the other side of the wall, i was choking up, chickening out, and basically sounding like a scared little kid trying out karaoke for the first time.

i just need to get inside these songs and make them mine. i need to stop trying to sing the song just like the original singer. and now i need to work on putting my own words to music. jason is picking up on that one already and i couldn't be more excited. heh. i think he's even learning lisa loeb for me :)

so uh, after a few more practices (hopefully not as spread apart as the last three have been), we are going to try playing for an audience. i'll keep you posted.

i just can't believe how good this feels. it's unreal. i'm slowly starting to slice off those ugly, little, chicken shit wings... and grow some gorgeous, angel wings of my own.

thanx, jason.