yesterday was the worst. on something like 4 hours of sleep... i was 20 min late for my therapy class. the prof made an example of me like i have never made an example of before. i think i handled it well, though... quite a few people from the class approached me about what a good job i did fielding all of the questions she threw at me. however, i wasn't prepared for any other of my 3 classes that day. i got caught falling asleep in one class, made an ass out of myself in front of two adorable guys in another, and became frightfully aware of how uninformed i am about certain parts our our history as a country and about the laws and my rights in the last one. have you heard of the murder case about 14 year old Emmett Till in Mississippi? most likely, you haven't... and i suggest you look it up. horrifying.

then i tried to avoid rush hour with my head ache the size of ohio by chillin in the WAM lab. that kind of worked, but my head was pounding so hard i got very little accomplished. then, as i headed home around 7... i hit an accident right at the 270 exit on 495... and sat there for 45 min without moving. i hadn't eaten since 11am and my head still hurt and i was falling asleep at the wheel and frankly i am surprised i didn't die.

i get home and my mother wants ME to make dinner. and i got news that my brother is getting a new car. hrmph. at least it's another Monte like he wanted... but damn. he totals his old one, makes a profit from the dealer and then gets a newer, more-equipped model. and he's in love. and he's got a starting spot on varsity lacrosse.

no. i am not bitterly jealous at all.

so it's 9 pm and i hafta do my resume, cover letter, job ad and time sheet for my internship class, get prepared for my 12:30 meeting with Gerry today and somehow get enough sleep to open the store at 4:45am.

needless to say... i am now on about 2 hours of sleep. the best thing that happened to me this week besides the promotion was that my boss let me go an hour early today. so now i have just enough time to shower and update you all before off to the meeting. let's just hope i did ok with my work.

there is no way i am going to be able to do all this today, get all my work caught up and done for my 4 classes again tomorrow and go to street jam tonight. and we wonder why we have gained over 10lbs since moving back home..................

it seems as though i have forgotten to put things like "showering" and "sleep" into my day planner. if i can't manage to do those things regularly, how the hell do i expect myself to make exercising and eating healthy happen when i end up eating something fast and furiously in my car ::heh. snort:: or at 9pm at night when my metablism slips from that of a manatee to an elephant?

oh. and lastly. i can't really complain about my lack of valentine... because i chose to remain solo... but i chose that option because i am slowly ridding myself of pointless, nonsensical drama. and loneliness sure as hell beats being torn and confused about boys. so yeah. friendship love and cuddles will be greatly appreciated this friday. but really... this is better for me anyways because according to the socialite experts at TGW, i won't be much fun sexually for quite a few more years.



if the smell of that sarcasm is bothering you... close your legs.