yes. i am quite pissed off, actually.

i'm sick. i have nasty, dirty hard core strep. and no, these adjectives together are not half as cool when put before the word strep instead of porn. quite the opposite, really. i have so much going on with my winterguard and my new job but can't do them because i'll infect half the youth in maryland with my disease. so all i want to do is get this new site up and running. that's all. i'm already 3 days late.

but yeah nothing is working out right at all.

i'm so fucking frustrated with everything- from not being able to get ahold of matt to figure out the hosting thing to waiting on code from people that i feel stupid bothering about it because they obviously have better things to do.

and so i'm trying to do this stuff by myself and it's just not working. my layout looks like ass, i can't get ANYTHING to show up through ftp and i don't even have my content together.

and the worst part about the whole thing is that i'm writing for an audience now. i almost went back and deleted this because it really serves no purpose for you all to read. i've lost sight of what i wanted this for in the first place... and that is just to share anything and everything that i'm going through- no matter what i think anyone else will think.

so fuck this i'm done pretending to be superman. i really need a few people to help me out who will actually help me. and i'm not saying this to make anyone feel bad. i just gotta get this together so i don't get to the point where i give up.

anyone who can sit down and help me pick, join and set up a hosting plan/mooch off of theirs/whatever whatever please let me know.

anyone who is decent with html and tables and shit also please let me know.

anyone who can teach me how to make photoshop my bitch and set up a thumb-nailed gallery for me please let me know.

and anyone who can help me find a good (hopefully free) tracking system for the new site please let me know.


but if you already have a lot going on and/or you won't be able to donate any time and knowledge to this then i'll pass. i know what i want my site to do and look like... but i really only have an elementary idea of how i can accomplish that.

for now i'm just going to go back to what i like in the first place. that whole writing thing.