Thursday, October 17, 2002

"Good Deed"

so as i was walking through the can of sardines that was Lot 1 today, i noticed that i was about to cross paths directly with another student. female, black, kinda bulky. i made eye contact with her and started to hesitate so she could pass me first. but instead, she stopped dead in her tracks and coldly said "go ahead... i'm not going to fight with you over who goes first." i smiled at first and thanked her. and that was the end. but as i walked farther... i started to get upset. like, pms upset.

why did she assume that i was going to fight with her over who goes first? why did she feel it necessary to say that phrase to me? it was like she knew she was the bigger person just by looking at me. like i am, by default, an inconsiderate, rude person.

funny how a seemingly "good deed" on her part can end up making me feel shitty.

bitch.

... so just for clarification ... a good deed is not that good if the only reason you do it because you assume someone else is going to be a dick about it. give people a freaking chance. this makes me sad, not only because of how i was treated, but because she thinks this way about people.

maybe i'm just over-reacting, but... that totally irked me all afternoon.

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