ok. i'm bitter. i know this post should go here... but i want comments. so it's going here.

so last night. we fight at work. he stays late so when i'm finished we can go eat. we eat. we shmooze. we play footsie. we fight some more. waitress hits on him. he hits on me.

snow starts falling. magical.

we get outside. cars are covered. he jokingly asks if i want to come over. he didn't expect a whole-hearted "yes" to push it's way through my smile, did he?

well that's what he got.

and he wasn't ready for it.

i hide in my hoodie. i nuzzle my rudolph nose against his. i lean forward. his hands maneuver a hostile take-over of my pockets.

"i don't think this would be a smart thing to do."

"so i take that as a no."

"no..."

"well i mean... what are we doing? should i just leave you alone?"

"well yeah...

::heart falls to the floor::

"if i'm like taking a crap or something."

"i hate you."

"i don't know what to do, liz."

"make a decision."

"i don't want things to get weird."

"they aren't going to get weird unless you make them. don't roll your eyes at me. all i know is that i wanna see what's here. so i can stop thinking about it."

"but i think we have a really good relationship right now and i don't want that to get messed up."

"listen. we both know this isn't smart. it's dumb even."

"so you like to do dumb things."

"well yeah, but. my point is that i don't limit myself from doing something i want to do just because some people may think that it's 'dumb'."

"tonight wouldn't be a good night anyway. we have to work tomorrow."

"well what if i came over and we just went to sleep? wait. no. i know what you're thinking... then what would the point of me coming over?"

giggle.

"goodnight."

"nite liz."

...

well guess what, folks? school got cancelled. and i could have easily called out of work. i could be knee deep in a fuzzie snowie night cap right now.

ugh. karma. you smite me.