so i'm looking over today's one word like i usually do after i do my little blurb of the moment... and it hits me that in comparison to a vast majority of the writers on there... mine are very...

how do i put this.

... elementary.

now i'm not saying this to have a pity party... it just makes me wonder why, as i writer, i don't have this thing about using big words. i envy my peers (if i can call them that) who have such an impressive vocabulary.

i used to think that i used description appropriately and that while my spelling and grammar struggled... the honesty in my writing was what made it shine. now i'm wondering if that is enough.

maybe i need to take a class or do some exercises or something.

or maybe i just need to do some stream of conscious writing for longer than 60 seconds every once in a while.

blegh. i hate you self doubt.