yeah. this really does make it all worth it.

a bit from an email that made me cry for the 80th time this month... but this time the tears were joyful:

You have no idea what you have done to us. I know we were all the awkward lost little girls who had no sense of self. You need to know, that you have given us that. You have let us be who we are, and you made us realize that its ok to be that. You have helped us to form friendships that will last us forever. You have given us memories we'll never forget, but most importantly you have given us the love and support we needed from a "big sister" when parents and other adults were inaccessible. You may not see it, but you truly have transformed the lives of a group of girls, and there arent enough words to tell you how much that means to me. I'm still unsure of what my future brings, but I do know that I have enough faith in myself and enough support, that I know I can get through anything.

Most importantly remember that you always have us to turn to.. even though we may be some dumb high schoolers, we've got your back.. I am honored to have been a part of the two groups whose activities have driven my senior year. I can honestly look back on this year with no regrets, because I put myself out there.. I tried my best. I wish I could give you the kind of support and encouragement you have always given us, in whatever weird form. You are an amazing wonderful person, and I wish you much healing and happiness.