ooga.

so we all have issues. things we have to deal with and work through. obstacles to overcome in our worlds and in our minds.

it's funny how sometimes people who i don't consider to be deep thinkers can knock me on my ass sometimes.

just because i like to fancy myself an intuitive and perceptive person does not mean i have all the answers... especially when the questions concern me.

i've put myself inside this bubble. i've lived in this bubble for almost a year now. a bubble that's shiny and pretty and magical in some ways... but when you break it down... it's really just a confining and limiting space.

i've been concentrating on the wrong things. so very aware of how hard it is for me to still be living at home. so very aware of my financial struggles and my dislike for my current employment. so very aware of my disappointment with my relationships concerning the opposite sex.

being aware is one thing. but hiding inside this bubble of poopiness while still presenting a shiny face for everyone else... yeah... it's not healthy... and thank god it is starting to fade.

so screw it. stupid boring bubble. i'm out.

i'm moving out in less than two weeks. i'm getting a new job and getting my crap together to go to grad school. i'm going to get guitar lessons from my new roommate and i am going to play some damn music already.

and i'm going to hang out with my friends again. and like. have a life.

sorry. boring post i know. but it's my page. and if you are one of those people in my life who knows how... sidetracked i can get when it comes to my social life... please smack me upside the head if you don't see me making any progress.

i'd really appreciate the beatings.