we've gotten used to

so i've been musically idle since the Arizona Incident. i'm kinda pissed at myself for letting that whole situation crush my spirit... but i can't go back and change that so let's not go there.

so anyway, after hearing about kristi's musical journey... and toying with the idea of singing with justin's band even though they are 3 hours away... and hearing from nat for the first time in a long time, being ashamed that when he asked me if i was still singing all i could say was "in the shower"... i decided that enough was enough.

so i went through some of my old stuff and found this little beauty.

here is the original acapella recording of that snippet. i apologize for the excellent quality of the recording and my voice. ahem.

and well... then i searched the lyrics on my hard drive and found that i had expanded the thing into a whole song. granted, it's just like any other run-of-the-mill sad love song... but it's a song.

positioned just perfectly
so that i could see him
but he couldn't see me

i've grown accustomed to
playing the part that i do
i've gotten used to
not being the one that goes home with you

i didn't even know
that he had come around again
but every time he goes
my heart flips upside down again

i feel the love creep
out of his eyes
gazing into hers
instead of mine

it's just the way he holds her hand
and how he silently stares
i just don't understand
why i still care

positioned just perfectly
so that i could see him
but he couldn't see me

you've gotten used to
avoiding my stares
and you've gotten used to
me always being there

i didn't even know
that he had come around again
but every time he goes
my heart flips upside down again

i feel the love creep
out of his eyes
gazing into hers
instead of mine

it's just the way he holds her hand
and how he silently stares
i just don't understand
why i still care

and now...
you can just see
he loves her so much

but what...
what about me
wasn't i enough?

i took karma's hint and recorded a new acapella version.

any instrumental musicians who might be interested in formulating the music for this piece, hit me up and i'll send you the new wav. that also goes for anyone who just wants to hear a longer, raw recording of my voice.

sorry i don't have a MP3 converter thing. i'll take recommendations on downloading a free one too if you have any.


being that i don't have any experience working with a band, or singing with a mic (chorus throughout my entire existence does not count)... i figured that the best way for me to get started is putting some of my stuff out there for people to hear. then maybe i'll find a group of people who might wanna work with me.

this is where you all say good luck.