oh my. waking up and reading what i wrote earlier this morning... sheesh. i'm a little embarassed, but not really. i'm just sorry to any of you who actually read all of that. i guess i just needed to get it all out. i know most of you won't understand most of it... and i know that some of you might be hurt/caught off guard/troubled or whatever by seeing so many he's... but really it's ok. that's what you get for living in one town your whole life and being an internet nerd. everyone is connected.

yep. ok. i'm done now.