constipated. with werdz.

AmngStarz: i want to write
AmngStarz: like
AmngStarz: so bad
AmngStarz: but i just cant
struggles101: awww

AmngStarz: and im constipated with words
afterophelia: do you have any known word laxatives that work for you?
AmngStarz: i wish

l2icochet: what are YOU doing?
AmngStarz: being jealous of people who write

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i am pitiful. in that beat yourself up over bullcrap sort of way. i read something that touches my heart everyday. so many people convey such emotion and meaning through their writing and it just makes me pine.

all this talk of being a writer. i can't be a writer if i never put down anything besides posts on a blog that i read more than anyone else. and the posts that i do write aren't heartfelt. i wonder how people who surf in feel about my writing. i'll always wonder because i never get the feedback. i mean, i guess it doesn't matter as long as i'm getting something out of it. but i'm starting to wonder if i really do.

what is the point? i mean... if i wrote a book... would i even want to read it? lord knows i'm a terrible closer. the ending would be horrid.

i cannot get a following for this site because i don't have nekkid pix and i don't have nifty computer nerd info and i don't have creative content anymore. all i do is whine.