Pardon the mess, my darlings!

Being that my computer, while equipped with brand new software ::kisses Theresa::, is retardedly slow... this new layout could take a very long time to get working correctly. I know it's the same, damn code- shut up! Unless you are a computer wiz dying to make me a truly new layout, we have to deal with what we have.

So yeah. Let me know what you think of it.

I'll give you a theory of change. Let's start with your underwear.

Those left standing will make millions writing books on the way it should have been.
-Incubus

There is a feeling in the pit of my stomach. My immediate response is to use the word "bad" or "ominous," for poetic reasons. But after a moment or two of contemplation I think I might have to go with "big" instead.

Things are stirring.

Things that haven't moved in a long time. There is some cracking and bending and everything is out of practice. It's very exciting... But a lot of work and pain lies ahead. I fear that my winterguard might be the first to feel the wrath of what is coming. Shortly after that, my ego will most likely be the target.

The mission, if I choose to accept it, is to push that waste of conscious aside to make room for all that now-mobile stuff I mentioned earlier.

Now George Michael is singing about faith in the background. I am almost ashamed that I can't decide if I like this original better than the Limp Bizkit cover. Don't shake your head at me. I'm not afraid of being trendy.

I need a favor. Your favorite posts of mine. I'd like to link them. Highlight my brilliance a bit.

This has accident written all over it. But if I do crash, make sure to take pictures...

because at least we know my underwear will be clean. I just changed them.

just for mister zanello.

i had no idea that my permalinks were all messed up until this comment was left under my last post by a very mysterious, very inspiring little weblogger. you can see the donkey, if you like, and give him a shout out for helping me out. some of you might remember lee, creator and webmaster of poplish (a site that i should be contributing to a lot more). he actually just revamped everything and made it FREE for people to post! hint hint. nudge nudge.

anyway- i might be bad at the whole "coding" thing... but this little error is just unacceptable. so yeah. i fixed it! now each and every post has a little webpage of its very own. too cute for words. enjoy it my friends, for we all know that without the archives... this site would be useless!

the asian sensation:

click here to find the comedy video listed under G Love & Special Sauce: Milk and Cereal. sorry folks, i had to take down the code to save myself from poking my computer monitor with sissors.

i just couldn't get enough of this. heh.

oh, pity parties are the greatest.

... and i'm so fucking good at them.

bottom line:
i've been lonely these past few weeks. i just want to feel wanted and important to someone that i want and who is important to me.

i HATE it that i need people like do. but damnit, i just do.

all the enjoyable, enlightening conversation in the world doesn't mean shit if you never have it in between kisses.

happy new year!

INGREDIENTS: Chamomile flowers, spearmint leaves, lemon grass, tilla flowers, blackberry leaves, orange blossoms, hawthorn berries, and rosebuds.

With the coming of the new year it appears that I have magically turned into an organic spirit of the earth. How charming.

DIRECTIONS: Pour boiling water over a tea bag and steep 4-6 minutes. If desired, add a touch of honey and a squeeze of lemon.

Or two spoons of sugar and a honey lemon menthol cough drop.

Okay... so maybe I’m not exactly an organic spirit as of yet. Maybe I’m just still sick and after a night like tonight, I needed a cup of Sleepy Time Tea (the cough drop was an accident. It kind of fell out of my mouth into the cup).

“What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.”
- Ralph Waldo Emerson

Funny how karma started early this year. That quote is written underneath the flap of the tea package I just opened.

Right, so. Resolutions:

#1. Do not let crushes develop just because you lack other options.

#2. Smile, nod and always thank everyone for their good advice on what you should be doing with your life.

#3. Stop pussyfooting around and get on with your dreams.

Challenges abound in 2005. Hope the same goes for all of you. Cheers.