yeah, fuck you too, halloween.

i've lost 20 lbs.

apparently, that isn't enough.

i don't want to even bother trying to fill in the holes of this swiss cheese description of my situation. so don't try to preach to me.

"you didn't look that bad before. i don't notice those things."

one of this blog's top searches is for the phrase "flabby belly" unattractive.

the only people who compliment me are the people who complimented me before i lost the weight.

"being sexy is not the same thing as being hot."
sexy is an attitude. hot is a state of being. i was informed that i was sexy. and that sexy isn't as good as hot.

thanks again for the painful reminder that what i am on the inside is not what matters.

the outside is what matters and well... mine just isn't good enough.

turnabout is fair play.

i catch myself in the mirror
surprised to see
the lines of my body
mimicking those of the women
i used to wish i could be