drive.

pink, plastic, tulip petals
peel back candy-coated olympic medals

marking silver, second place procrastination
in this race we almost win
but always lose

it's perpetual
never-ending
impossible to come in last

but this is the last time
i'll be able to let you look at me like that

highway speeds
leave windows down and hopes up

and bitter-proof seat belts
hold hasty second-thoughts at bay

100 miles per hour away

... i used to get car sick in this sort of thing.

Choose Life.

Tonight I watched trainspotting with Fuzzy. I know, I'm a few years behind. Shut up.

The acting was acceptable. The accents were a turn on. The going through withdrawal scene was kinda freaky. The ending was cute. That monologue is stellar. It kept me entertained. It kept me guessing. It was "well done," whatever the fuck that means... but that's really about it.

Thought-provoking? Yes it was, but for the "wrong" reasons. No, it didn't make me hate society and the cookie-cutter lives most people live any more than I already do. No, it didn't make me want or not want to do hard drugs any more than I already do or don't. No, it didn't make me really think about what I'm doing with my life and what exactly IS important to me.

It did get me thinking that I really must be getting bored with movies that romanticize the FUCK out of drug use. And violence. And, oh, I dunno... love and sex too. Since we're making a list now, let me put pop culture and the lives of the rich and fabulous on there too.

The film may have been revolutionary for its time and rock a killer soundtrack, but come off it. I'm not going to live as a junkie and I'm not going to live as suburban zombie. There's something more than these extremes (that we constantly rewrite with slightly different interpretations) out there. There has to be. And I guess those that do actually find it don't need to make a fucking movie about it.

Stop Slacking, Elizabeth!!

Sigh.

I really do irritate myself. I talk such a good game and then don't follow through with half the crap I really want to do.

However... I do have news about everything else that's going on:

Band Camp went really well.
My girls had their first parade on Monday, and they are doing such a great job. Our first half-time performance is on Friday night and I'm uber excited. I've been designing and sewing the flags myself for the first piece, and could not be more proud. Sewing was one form of creative expression that I've never really dabbled in, and I'm not going to lie... I am really diggin' it. I wonder where I can get my hands on a sewing machine. I'd love to get crafty with my room and my clothes and stuff.

TJNR is pumpin.
I've managed to get out of my posting funk over there (finally!!), and some things are changing to make the whole site a lot more appealing.

Among Starz is almost ready to be released.
Mister Web Designer Man and I have been working pretty hard to get my personal site back up. He is doing such a great job with the design, I can't be too mad about how long it's taken. Please check out the link to the right and lemme know what you think of it so far.

We are now in stage one of The Black & White.
You should all check your email and get back to me on that... Ewee, I don't even HAVE your email addy, so if you can get that for me, that would rock solid.

So while this site is pretty dry on my end, make no mistake... I am still pumpin.