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i've had the same hair style for over 7 years. i finally got bored and chopped it off. and now...


i am an anime character.

subbing.

it's like a war really. so many different battles to fight at the same time.

me vs. the kids.
yeah, i want them to listen to me. want them to do their work. continue the learning process. do my job properly and according the the guidelines. but scaring them into submission makes my head hurt. and outsmarting them at their own game was awesome at first, but looses its magic after the 50th time you have the same argument, with the same result.

me vs. the man.
but when the teachers leave busy work that won't even be graded, what the hell is the point? i'd rather let the kids have a good time. entertain me, even. it seems like they have no faith in me as an educator, and i'd hate to live up to anything other than their expectations.

me vs. me.
i'd much rather type away at the computer or read my novel. and it's like the teachers leave me no choice. how am i supposed to stay awake all freaking morning with nothing to focus on except children doing busy work? so any of you folks wasting away in front of a computer who want to tempt me, gmail chat is a beautiful, beautiful thing.

keeping tabs...

i moved out of my house.

i became an independent, financial adult.

i designed and choreographed the most successful colorguard show of my career.

i proved myself as a showchoir choreographer and designer.

i wrote for and helped layout a college newspaper.

i came into my own as a hip hop and jazz dancer.

i excelled in a creative fiction writing course.

i lost 20 lbs.

i adopted a kitten.

i found out how to make love stay.

i got up enough nerve to train with a senior drum corps.

and i did all of this while maintaining 2 additional jobs, as a server and substitute teacher.



i guess, when you write it all out, i'm not such a nobody afterall.

Boondox: December 2006

I think he was trying to get into my pants...